Forty-five
minutes later Reags was wheeled out
of the surgical suite with the doctor by her side.He motioned to us, and we joined him.The lift arrived, and we were silent until
the orderlies got Reags back into her bed and left the room.The doctor motioned Max
and me to chairs and
sat on the edge of the bureau in Reags’ room. “Mr.
Espan, do I have permission to speak
frankly in front of your friend?” “Of
course.” “This
was a spontaneous abortion in every sense
of the term.Your
wife has been through
an experience she was fortunate to survive, and now her body is
directing all
its energies to healing the damage and sustaining her
life.Her physical
resources simply had nothing
left over to give to the foetus.After
addressing the emergent aspect of the abortion – the
miscarriage if you prefer
that term – I did a deep pelvic exam while she was still
under
anaesthesia.Her
reproductive system is
entirely healthy and intact.There
is
absolutely no reason that she can’t conceive again once
she’s recovered from
her injuries.I
would advise caution for
three to six months; at that point, you may again attempt to conceive.She’ll be more
than well enough at that point
in time to sustain a pregnancy.”He
walked the two steps to where we were sitting and put his hand on
Max’s
shoulder as Max looked up at him. “I
know this is a lot to take in, Mr.
Espan.You almost
lost your wife, and
now you’ve both lost your child.My wife
and I lost a child to miscarriage a few years ago, and I do
know how you
feel at this point.We
were about your
ages at that time, and that child was our first pregnancy.We were devastated,
fearful that because of
our ages, we wouldn’t have another opportunity for a family.We were wrong.We now have two healthy
children, and she’s
pregnant with our third.Women
today
bear healthy children into their late 40s, and there’s
absolutely no reason
your wife can’t be among that number.”Max stood and extended his hand, and they shook hands as
Max spoke. “Doctor,
I appreciate your words in this
matter.Nothing can
negate our despair
at the loss of this child, but your kindness and understanding
– and your
encouragement regarding a future child – are comforting.I thank you, and I know my
wife will as
well.”
*
Ten
days later Max and Reags were back in Dallas.I’d gone home
the day after Reags’
miscarriage, and Dino had put in a call to our health insurance carrier.I wasn’t in the
room when he made the call,
but he succeeded in having them pick up the cost of an air ambulance to
transport Reags home.I
smile every time
I think of how that convo must have gone, as air
ambulance service other
than in life-threatening situations isn’t covered by our
policy. Dino,
Diana, and I were waiting at the north end
of their property when the air ambulance came into view and gently sat
down in
the field behind their house.The
ground
was too bumpy to roll the stretcher over it, but the medics, Max, Dino
and I
carried it to the house and inside where we finally let Reags put her
feet on
the floor.She
laughed as the dogs
thronged round her, sniffing her and the cast on her left arm as she
sat in her
usual chair and Diana went into her hovering routine.Reags looked up at her. “Dee, I
appreciate the overt display of concern, but I’m fine.You don’t need
to compensate for not being at
the hospital.If
you try it, you’re
going to learn that I’m an even less cooperative patient than
Terry was last
year.”That
got Diana sorted, and she
smiled as she sat across from Reags. “Am
I allowed to ask how you’re feeling?” “Pretty
damned good, all things
considered.Sore,
yes, but they let me
off the walker for the hip yesterday, as long as I promised to use the
cane for
a month.It’s
a hairline fracture and
should be well healed by then.The
stitches come out the first of next week, and the ribs will heal in
time.The plate and
screws in my arm are permanent
fixtures unless I elect additional surgery to remove them, and that’s
not going to happen.The
cast will be
off in another month to six weeks.The
only thing that actually still hurts is the ribs, and God help me if I
cough or
sneeze!The vest
keeps the ribs stable,
but sneezing and coughing still hurts.” Max,
Dino, and I could all identify with that
statement, as broken ribs are common in our line of work.A projectile may be
stopped by Kevlars, but
the impact often serves to fracture a rib or two.I noted she didn’t mention the miscarriage,
and if neither she nor Max did, there was no way the rest of us would.Some things you just
don’t talk about unless
the principals give you the nod. REAGAN I
lost three days of my life, our baby, and my
new car.I
can’t remember a bloody thing
between driving down the lane and looking back at Max and waking up in
hospital
in Houston
aside from the impact when that drunk son-of-a-bitch hit me.Everything else is gone. As
there was nothing to be done about the loss
of memory and the time I was unconscious, I let go of that; it would
likely
return in time.If
it didn’t, that was
fine with me.The
car could be
replaced.Both
Maximus and I were still
grieving the miscarriage, but we were also determined to try again as
soon as Sharon
gave us the all
clear.The Saturday
morning after I
returned home on Wednesday, we were sitting in the lounge, sipping
coffee and
reading the morning paper when Max put down the section in his hands
and looked
at me.I put down
the editorial section
– a good thing, as I was becoming progressively more pissed
at the idiocy
between Washington
and the Middle East
– and waited for him to speak. “Are
you happy in this house?”Huh?Where did that come from? “Yes
…why do you ask?” “I
have been considering our options.” “Such
as?” “We
will have a family in the near
future.”That
made me smile.Yes,
we would and at the earliest date
possible.We could
never replace the
child we’d lost, but we could have others …well,
at least one. “We
have friends living elsewhere who
occasionally visit and spend nights with us.”I nodded.“This
house has but
three bedrooms …ours, the one converted to an office for
you, and at present, a
guest room.I am
not content to have no
designated room as nursery.The
current
situation requires us to convert the guest room to a nursery, and once
our
child is born I will not return the nursery to a guest room on those
occasions
we have friends stay overnight.Our
child will have his own room from the day of his birth.”He did have a point;
I’d not thought that far
ahead.I smiled at
his use of the
generic noun because I knew Max actually wanted a daughter.Big shift of values for
the Old Roman, isn’t
it? “What
did you have in mind?”He
held up the section of the paper he’d been
reading …the real estate section.Ah. “Would
you consider moving to a more appropriate
property, or possibly buying a parcel of land and building a new home
together?Though
comfortable and
appropriate for our current needs, this house will not lend itself to
expansion, neither of its physical structure nor of our
family.” He
had me there.This
house is lovely, and until Maximus
brought up the problems involved in its size, I’d never even
thought of
moving.His
analysis – irrespective of
my love for this house – was absolutely correct.The design of this house
didn’t leave any
options for expansion on either front.To alter it physically by adding on a room or rooms would
make it look
like some sort of absurd accident, much like a three-year-old child
building
houses with Leggos.I
thought for a
moment before replying. “In
truth, I don’t want to live in a
house built by and for anyone else.If
we’re going to leave this house, I’d prefer we work
with an architect and
custom design our home together.Of
course, that means finding an appropriate property on which to build
that home,
doesn’t it?” “It
does, and I have done a bit of looking – I
had begun the process before your accident – both at
available properties and
architects we might consider to design our new home.”Most times it
isn’t that easy to get the jump
on me, but I’d been a bit slow on the uptake since the
accident and prior to
that getting pregnant had occupied much of my thought processes.On acknowledging that, it
didn’t surprise me
in the least that he’d been looking. “What
sort of property did you have in
mind?”He
smiled, and I knew what was
coming.Sometimes I
really can read
him like a book. “I
am hopeful you would consider a larger
parcel of land, farther from the city, perhaps truly in the countryside
as
opposed to the nether reaches of the urbs.I would enjoy having room to do a bit of farming and
perhaps have a few
horses.I would
enjoy breeding
Andalusians once more, if you would consent to that in the future.You know I am a farmer at
heart.”
I
smiled, remembering his comment to Quintus
…dirt washes off easier than blood.Max had been – and still is – a
soldier by profession; his heart
has always been in farming. “What
size parcel of land are you
considering?”He
took a deep breath and
answered. “I
see no need to dissemble with you, Cara.I have found a parcel of
land – some 350
acres – about 45 minutes drive south of Dallas.It is for sale at $1500 an
acre.Due to the
numerous ponds, the abundant game,
and the perfectly serviceable farm house, the owner’s asking
price is $525,000.Given
the proximity to the city for our work
and the bucolic atmosphere of the country, that is a reasonable figure.I have inspected the
property and believe it
to be entirely suitable for our needs.If we were to purchase the property, we could live quite
comfortably in
the existing farm house until such time as our own home could be built.I have made no commitment
– I would not
presume without your agreement and consent – though I did ask
the owner for
first right of refusal as I viewed the property some time past.He has agreed.This past week I called
and advised him it
might be some weeks before you were able to travel to see the property;
I told
him of your car crash, and he said he would wait.” Half
a million for the farm I knew Maximus
would treasure with ever fibre of his being.The old adage about if something appeared too good to be
true niggled at
my brain. “If
this is such a great deal, why hasn’t it
sold?For that
matter, why is he
interested in selling?” “The
land is dear to him; his family has owned
it for more than one hundred years.He
wishes it to go to someone who will love and respect the land as he has
done;
until I spoke with him, that person had not presented himself.It appears we share a deep
love of the
land.His interest
in selling is a
function of his age.He
is now past 80
and can no longer work the property as it should be done.His children have no
interest in farming or
ranching, preferring to live in the city.His wish is to find someone he trusts to care for the land
before he
dies, rather than know his children will parcel it up and sell it to
the
highest bidders following his death.” “Have
you had it appraised?What
about mineral rights?Would
we get those as well as the land, or
will his heirs inherit the rights to the oil field lying ten feet
underground?”I
was joking about the oil
field, but if we were going to sink that kind of money into property
and the
current owner had avaricious children – and it sounded as if
that was a high
probability – I wanted the mineral rights.If anything of value should be
discovered at some future point in
time, I had no wish to fight over it with someone’s children.More than that, I
didn’t want them
tearing up our property to get at their
oil or gas reserves. “I
have made a cursory internet search
regarding mineral rights.No
one has
inspected the land for reserves, as it has been utilised only for
farming and
ranching purposes to this date.Tom
Holloway is making a legal search to see what he might find.I have advised the owner
that if we buy this
land, we will require mineral rights to be part of the sale.He has agreed.In addition, he took the
precaution some time
ago of having his children sign away their rights to the property in
the event
of a change of ownership; they have no legal standing either to dispute
the
sale or how the new owners wish to utilise the property, though they would
inherit all rights should he die before it is sold.Inasmuch as Mr. Abbott is willing to sign
over mineral rights, I believe a fair purchase price would be
$750,000.”He’d
certainly done his homework, but I’d not
have expected anything less of Maximus. “Have
you talked to anyone about house plans?” “Not
at this time, though I have investigated
architectural firms and have two in mind I believe would meet your
standards.I felt
we should delay
discussion of actual plans for our home until after having discussed
fully what
we require in the home in which we will likely spend the rest of our
lives.” I
felt tears come to my eyes.Physical
roots – land, a home – and family
are as important to Maximus as they are to me.That’s one of the many reasons I love him as I
do.I grabbed a
tissue and blotted my eyes before
speaking. “Okay
…get me a pad and pen, would you?”He did, sitting beside me as he handed them
to me.“How
many children are we going
to have?”From
the light in his eyes and
the smile on his lips, I knew that he wanted as many as I was willing
to
bear. “Why
don’t we say two for planning
purposes?”He
nodded reluctantly.“Master
bedroom suite with a connecting
nursery.I’m
not walking all over the
house or running up and down stairs in the middle of the night to care
for an
infant.He or she
will be in the next
room.Of course, if
we plan for two
children, I suppose we could just as easily plan for three
…or possibly
four.”That
got me another smile, and now
his nod wasn’t in the least hesitant.Uh
huh …the man wants a houseful of kids.I think I can manage to live with that. “One
child per room.Even
very young children need their own
private space.”Another
smile and nod
…he was enjoying this more with every word I said.“So, master
suite plus nursery, two bedrooms
for children, at least one guest bedroom – might as well plan
ahead for when
our brood is grown and comes to visit with their
children so two or
three guest rooms, perhaps a couple of guest houses later if you start
breeding
horses because we’ll need room to house prospective buyers;
we really don’t
want to have the same set up here that East had to deal with when Terry
and
Diana went to Virginia to buy Buck.We'll need an office or two – I don’t
honestly see you and me sharing
a home office –a
library.Formal
living area and a lounge, formal
dining room.Large
kitchen with a
breakfast area.Utility
room.Three car
garage …we’ll need room eventually
for at least one car for the children.Playroom for the children.Deck
in the back yard and a hot tub …maybe a pool some
day.”His
smile was still growing. “If
you want horses, we need at least one barn
to start.If you
actually start breeding
Andalusians, we can build additional barns as they’re needed.The same goes for an arena
if you get into
training …are you planning on going into competition with Dee?”That got me a laugh. “I
would not presume so far; however, as this
property is as far south of the city as theirs is north, I doubt any
competition would arise.”I looked at
the list thus far. “You
realise that we’re talking about a
3500-plus square foot house.And
in
today’s economy, we could be looking at $750,000 to a million
dollar home.” “I
am quite aware of that fact.” “Can
we afford close to two million for
a house and property at this point in our lives?” “I
have spoken with my bankers in Zurich.Based on my reserves with
them, and my
ongoing earnings potential – and yours – they have
pre-approved loans for both
the land and the building of the house.”I love Swiss bankers; they don’t piss about for
weeks, they look at your
balance and your earnings potential and answer your questions
immediately. “One
story or two?” “I
have no preference.I
shall leave that decision to you.”Leave that decision to me?At this point, it seemed
he was leaving all
the specs for the house to me. “Maximus,
if we’re seriously considering this,
I’d like to do it soon.I really don’t
want to be in the middle of construction during the latter stages of
pregnancy,
nor do I have any desire to move when I have an infant or a small child
to care
for …well, we could move whilst
I’m pregnant, but if we don’t do this
soon, we aren’t going anywhere until the child is at least
two-years-old.Of
course, I suppose moving from the existing
farm house into our new home wouldn’t be all that
stressful ….”He stood and walked across the room, picked
up the telephone handset, got his address book from his briefcase, and
came
back to sit beside me. “Who
are you calling?” “As
you said, if we are to do this, we should
do it as soon as possible.Do
you think
you can make the drive to look at the property within the next two
weeks?”I
couldn’t answer him because I was smiling
too broadly.Fortunately
that smile told
him all he needed to know.He
dialled,
and I listened. “Mr.
Abbott?This is Max Espan …I am calling to ask if my
wife and I might drive down
two weeks from today in order that she may see the property.” MAXIMUS We
left home before nine, driving leisurely
south and west to the land I had found as a possible site for our new
home.I harboured
some concern regarding
Cassandra’s ability to make the trip, fearing it would
overtire her.She
was not yet back at work – on the orders
of her physician – but seemed to feel quite well.She tired easily and often
took naps in the
afternoon; our early departure today would insure returning home in
time for
her to rest before dinner. I
had fallen into the habit of calling from the
office several times daily to check on her, to be told each time that
she was
well and I need not worry.I
knew that
Diana occasionally came to the house to check on Cassandra, using the
excuse
that she was ‘in the neighbourhood.’On
relating the ruse to me, Cassandra said she had commented to Diana that
her
so-called ‘neighbourhood’ appeared to have expanded
exponentially. On
turning off the highway onto the narrow
private road that lead to the farm’s main gate and the house,
Cassandra grew
animated and looked round in delight.A
doe and her fawn rested not far from the road in one place, and several
rabbits
hopped across the lane ahead of the car as I drove slowly toward the
house.I had called
Mr. Abbott when we
left the main road, and he met us as we turned into the car park at the
house.Cassandra
turned to me when she saw
him approach.
“I’d
pictured him as a frail, old man.He looks about as vigourous as they come!” “He
is quite agile for his age, though he has
told me he tires more easily now than a few years past.He truly has no wish to leave his land but
feels that move to be in the best interests of the property and
resident
livestock. He owns
a small house in the
nearby town; I have told him that should we purchase the property, he
is
welcome to visit at any time he might wish.I hope I have not misspoken.”She
shook her head. “Of
course you haven’t!If
we buy and build here, he’s welcome at any
time.”She
looked round and seemed to
only then have focused her attention on the farmhouse.It was small, a wooden structure, painted
white with a red roof.She
turned back
to me. “I
hate to say this because it sounds
condescending, but that farm house is absolutely charming.”I helped her out of the
car and introduced
her to Mr. Abbott.Within
half an hour
of arriving it was quite clear I had best contact my bankers on Monday
morning
and advise them that I would be seeing my local solicitor in the coming
week to
draw up the sale documents.The
three of
us closed the deal to purchase the farm that afternoon; it was
accomplished in
the time-honoured Texas
fashion with handshakes amongst the three of us.Happy but sorely fatigued, Cassandra fell
asleep in the car before we had reached the interstate.To say that I was pleased would be an
understatement.Though
denied me in my
first life, this one had given me the land I wanted; I would now be
able to
farm as I had always wished.
*
Ten
days later, my private line rang just after
eleven; it was Cassandra. “I
don’t see anything pressing on your calendar
for the afternoon …if I drive in, can you get away for
lunch?”Though
the cast was still on her arm, she had
been given permission on Monday to resume driving.We had replaced her car – though not with the
same model destroyed in the crash – and she had resumed her
normal activities
but for going to bed shortly after eight each evening. “Of
course I can meet you for lunch.Do
you wish to come by the office, or shall I
meet you somewhere?” “I’ll
come by the office.I
haven’t seen Sooze since shortly after
coming home from Houston,
and it would be great to talk to her for a few minutes.” “Drive
carefully.I shall
be waiting for you.” REAGAN “Hey,
Sooze, how’ve you been?How’s Dolores?”She almost broke a heel getting round the
desk to give me a gentle hug. “We’re
great, and you look wonderful.The
ribs holding up okay?”I
nodded; I’d been relieved of the vest at
the same time I’d been given permission to drive, and all
that was left was a
bit of residual soreness. “I
think I’m back to normal, normal being a
relative term …Max would probably never consider me normal.”We laughed as Max walked
into the lobby.He
must have heard me arrive and walked over
to take my hand. “Two
women discussing men …I had best get my
wife out of here before the two of you begin conspiring against us.Three men against two
women have no chance of
victory.”We
were laughing as Terry and
Dino came out of their offices to see me.After chatting for a few minutes, Max and I left for lunch.He spoke as we rode down
in the lift. “Where
are we having lunch?” “Avanti; I'm in the mood for Italian.I’ve made
reservations.”As
it was only a couple of blocks from the
office to the restaurant, we walked and were seated only seconds after
arriving.Maximus
looked over at me as
the waiter put water in front of us. “To
what do I owe the pleasure of your company
for lunch?” “I’ve
spent the last few days checking out the
architectural firms you mentioned, and I want to bounce a few specifics
off
you.”He
nodded, smiling as he spoke. “Please,
bounce as you will.”His
smile when he said that told me he was
looking forward to our being able to bounce more than specifics
…the springs on
our bed come immediately to mind.What I
hadn’t told him on the phone earlier was that I’d
seen Sharon Fletcher at nine
this morning and had been given the all clear to resume a normal sex
life,
provided we didn’t get too vigourous.I’d wait and give him that news when he got home
tonight; if I told him
now, he’d take the afternoon off work.Maximus had been out of the office enough during my
recovery; resumption
of our sex life could wait another six hours. “I’ve
checked out architects with both firms,
and while I’m impressed with both groups, what I’ve
found about Bill Fry with
Creative Architects is wonderful.He
specialises in homes for families who know what they want in the
long-term.He
isn’t interested in working with couples
who are building a ‘starter home,’ and as he has a
large family of his own, he
understands planning for children not yet born.”We accepted the menus
offered by the maitre
d’, and Maximus looked across the table at me. “And
how do you come to have this very specific
information?” “I’ve
talked with him three times in the last
week.” “I
see …and might I surmise you have made
arrangements to meet with him?”I
nodded. “I’ve
made arrangements for us
to meet with him Saturday at ten.I’ve given him our specifications, and
he’ll
have a couple of quick sketches for us to go over at that time.Are you willing to meet
with him this soon?” MAXIMUS I
was willing to
meet with the man at any time but could not resist teasing Cassandra a
bit
before acknowledging that fact. “You
said he has a
large family …do you know what he considers
large?” “He
and his wife
have five children …number six is on the way.” “I
see …and do they
have one of those very large and most inappropriate cheek-by-jowl
houses in
Turtle Creek or University Park?” “No,
they do not!They have a hundred acres
just north of Denton.They like living in the
country as much as we
do.That’s
another reason I like him …he
doesn’t think we’re fools for wanting to live an
hour’s drive from the city and
commute every day.”Perhaps
I had taken
my jest too far, as she seemed on the verge of annoyance with me.I reached across the table
to take her hand
as I spoke. “Cara, I was in jest.I, too, have spoken with
Mr. Fry and am
impressed with him.I
was unaware the
two of you had been in contact.”She
relaxed visibly. “I’m
sorry, Maximus
…while I’m feeling good enough now, I guess my
disposition and powers of
perception aren’t quite back in top form, are they?”They were not, but her
various physicians had
assured us that might be a problem for a time.She continued before I could respond.“Did you swear him to silence at not telling me
you’d spoken with him?” “I
did not wish to
influence your opinion of him; I thought it best we reached a level of
comfort
with his skills independently of the influence of the other.”She nodded as she spoke. “I
like what I’ve
heard from his thus far – and what his references have to say
– and I’m looking
forward to meeting him in person.” We
met with Mr. Fry
the following Saturday to discuss our requirements and wishes in our
home.He made
suggestions, and when we left his
office we had made an appointment to return in one month.He would have several
floor plans and designs
for us to consider at that time.
*
“Is
there one that
appeals to you more than the others?”Bill Fry was a most earnest man, taking his work very
seriously and
listening attentively to our comments and concerns as well as our
questions
regarding rearrangement of the rooms in the schematics he offered for
our
consideration.I
looked at Cassandra and
our joint attention returned to the second schematic he had shown us.I took my pen and wrote in
‘Nursery’ beside
the bedroom across the hall from the Master Suite and looked up to see
Cassandra’s smile.
Two hours later
and
having used highlighter pens of green and yellow, we had arrived at a
plan we
felt would suit our needs for as long as we might live.We had used green to indicate the position of
the original second floor and where it overlaid the ground floor.The so-called
‘future space’ on the second
floor had been expanded to provide the additional living space required
and
marked in yellow with the necessary annotations for additional
bedrooms, a
bath, and library clearly indicated.Our
annotations made Mr. Fry smile.
Before leaving
Mr.
Fry’s office, we had signed the contract authorising him to
begin work on the
architectural plans based on the schematic.We were advised they would be ready within six weeks.He would call when they
were done, and we
would set up a time to meet with him in order to finalise any further
details.Based on
his recommendations,
we would begin interviewing builders at that time.In time and following numerous meetings, we
settled on Ed Heitman as our builder.We
signed the final contract with Mr. Heitman’s firm on 21st
April, the
six-month anniversary of our marriage.The original schematic had accounted for 4,190 feet of
floor space; the
plan we finally approved consisted of 4,862 square feet of living space.It was to be –
in Dino’s words - ‘one big
fucking house.’